Well another week has come and gone and I'm still here hanging on to everything I can. I have spent many hours on this computer just reading my blog over and over. It seems like now it was just a dream. It was a fairytale! Prince Charming is not here anymore he is sitting in heaven waiting for us to join him. The one thing that has been really weighing on my heart is how I have put all my faith and love in Patrick. I look back and think that instead of praising Patrick I should have been praising God for Patrick. The love that I have in my heart I know is the same love that God has for me. Sometimes in life we spend so much time loving our precious gifts instead of loving our Heavenly Father who has given these gifts to us. What hurts is that they are not for us to keep. They are given to us for a reason that we do not know but hopefully it brings us closer to God. I have looked so hard for happiness and peace, the kind that Patrick brought into my life, but I now know that it was God's way of saying that he can give me that love and peace but I must first rely on him to do it. He is the constant in my life. I have had many ups and downs and lots of joy and sadness and through it all God has been with me. I am dealing with the fact that when my world comes tumbling down I call upon him for help, but when life is going smoothly I just go through the motions. I know that Patrick is at peace now and happier than he ever could be on this earth but my sadness along with our families is still real. I know that neither Patrick or God wants us to hurt like this, so I continue to pray and ask for God's peace in all of our hearts. Through Patrick, God showed me what real love is. What it means to be unselfish, understanding, compassionate, loving, and easy going. Love does not hurt. He taught my children about patience, love, respect, and forgiveness. He taught all of us about family, and what it meant to be part of his family. He has brought so many people together and I want to praise the Lord for that blessing. I want to thank God for the short time he blessed all of us with Patrick and the many blessing that his short life gave all of us. We have to now take these blessings and carry them on throughout our lives no matter how short or long that may be and proclaim to everyone how wonderful our Heavenly Father is.
I am a mother of four beautiful kids who has just lost the love of my life. Patrick worked night shift at Peabody Coal Mine as an operator. I am employed with Loogootee Community Schools as the Elementary P.E./Health Teacher. My oldest daughter, Tyra is 11yrs old and in the sixth grade. She enjoys gymnastics, cheerleading, and dance. Tanner is 8 yrs. old, in the second grade and plays baseball, soccer, basketball and loves to ride his four wheeler and dirt bike. He also enjoys hunting and fishing. Trey is six years old and just started kindergarten. He plays baseball and soccer. He loves to do his hair like Patrick and always wants to be a "preppy" boy like Patrick. Tia is five years old and loves to play dress up and being our little Princess. She is Patrick's little gymnast. He signed her up and took her to her first gymnastics class.
Our family enjoys spending time together at the pool, watching our nieces and newphews play sports, going to WWE together, watching little league baseball games, going to church at St. Martin's on Sundays and having family dinner afterwards. Family time is very important to us.
look what we did mom;0) hanna montana shirt, jean skirt/d pigtails.. lol im sooooo good (Sent by Fletch Sept. 4, 8:23 am)
Fletch & Josh
Thanks Josh for finding the love of my life!
Tony, Eric, & Fletch
Having fun at the Straussenfest:)
Tia & Jayleigh
Olympic Day at Gymnastics - Tia took her Gold Medal to Patrick's grave because she wanted him to know that she is still his little gymnast. She also wanted him to see her cartwheel. She says she knows how proud he is of her & she will always be Fletch's gymnast.