First Day Back

Well I went back to school today and I would be lying if I said it was easy. There were so many memories of him being there that I did not want to face the day because he wasn't there. I wake up in the morning sad because I want to hear him say Good morning beautiful and kiss me. I am sad when I go to sleep because he is not there to say good night baby. At lunch, I feel lost because he is not going to be there. I use to slip into the bedroom and just watch him sleep with my blanky. He always woke up with a smile and never forgot to ask how the first part of my day was and after school he always remembered to ask how the second part was. He was the kind of guy who did not forget the small things and they mattered to him. He text on my birthday and every month anniversary at 12:00 am to remind me. He made me feel like a million dollars and never asked for anything but love. Church yesterday was hard. Driving out to Whitfield I cried. I cried most of the way through mass and missed his hug during the sign of peace. I miss the way he rubbed my hand and touched my face. We did eat Los Bravos afterwards and truly enjoyed being with Megan, Denise, and his Aunt Donna. I just look at the kids and my heart breaks. God blessed us with the greatest man and he took him in a blink of an eye. Do not get me wrong I know that we are all gifts from above and we never know when we will be taken back home, but I have so much hurt right now I just can't put my mind around it. My heart is broken and it literally aches. The past two days have been horrible and it seems each day it gets harder so I guess I am just asking everyone who reads this to please pray for us that we will receive some type of peace through all of the heartache. Today ended on a good note. I went to Megan's game at Vincennes and they won. She did so awesome. I am proud of her and I know Patrick was just smiling. Especially since I went down with Denise and her three sisters. I wonder why Mike didn't ride down with all of us crazy women. Lol I think Patrick would have went by himself too. I love being around them for a moment I feel like he is with me but than I look over and he isn't. Well I have lost my best friend, the man who I not only loved but was in love with and gained an extended family and little sister. Until I see him again and I know I will, we all just need to hold on to one another and be thankful for what we have!!!! That's all for tonight.
Love and God Bless,
Tara